1. Anonymous said: Hey ! The last 2 posts, the most recent one "you know who" i kind of sent it twice after fixing it up, the "you know who" one can be deleted if you want. not much point having 2 identical ones haha (some of it was changed as you can see)

    I actually didn’t receive a “you know who” ask/submission.. well not that I can remember, but I don’t have anymore ask/submission that needs to be answered or posted in my inbox. 

  2. Anonymous said: People say im too young to love. Im 15, grade 10. I have had feelings for the same guy since grade 5. He has liked me and told me on and off, saying he only thought of me when he dated others. He asked me out a month before i moved away because he wanted a chance to be with me no matter if i was moving. We spent that month together. I moved away, and we continued to talk; but i had to push him away bc it hurt so much to talk and be so far. I moved back a year later and i want him back. Help?

    I don’t know anyway of getting him back, however you told me that "he only thought of me when he dated others" Did it ever occurred to you that when you guys went out or IF you guys end up going out again, don’t you think he’s saying that same line to another girl? If he dated other girls yet thought of you, you know he’s not very faithful… he might even do that to you.. date you and think of another girl. I don’t know, that to me was a big red stop sign and a no no. 

    But if you insist on getting back with him, try talking to him again, it might bring back feelings.

  3. Anonymous said: When an ex say this "I love you like I love a homie but not too the point where I wanna get back together with you," what does it mean? He also likes someone else & he knows i still like him. Then he said "Knowing you're hurt by this kinda breaks me"

    He loves you as a friend because if he loves you more than that, he knows he’ll just hurt you at the end. Take his word and don’t go back to him, he knows you deserve better than what he’s able to treat you. 

  4. Anonymous said: So my ex won't talk to me no more. I really miss him. I just really want to be friends with him . We dated for four months. I feel like we still have some unfinished love. Well i do. I want to move on but god gives me a sigh to go back. I really love him its hard just to forget about him. What should i do?

    What is this “sign” that God gives you?

    There’s a reason why you guys broke up in the beginning and a reason why your ex isn’t talking to you anymore. 

    Try to accept your situation and move on, because if you guys truly did love each other, breaking up shouldn’t have happened. 

  5. Anonymous said: Hello,10 months ago me and my ex split up over certain situations. Ever since me and him have been in contact. We go through periods of loving eachother and then going through periods of hating eachother. The thing is he still loves me he admits it too me but he's too scared to persue anything again because he's scared of hurting me. And I'm scared of the same thing because when we broke up the first time it hurt bad. I don't know what to do cause I can't stand him seeing other girls please help

    Both of you guys know how it’s going to end with each other.. the same way. On and off. 

    Move on and live life for a few years without them and see if your life changes. Right now, you guys are infatuated with each other and both of you tend to miss what you guys had immediately when you guys drift and that’s not very healthy. Live life a little different for a few years, if you guys really are meant to be, then your paths will cross again. 

  6. Dear Gullnar,

    It’s been 17 months since we’ve talked normally, 17 months that I’ve thought about you everyday, 17 months that hate myself for ruining love for the both of us. I didn’t want to keep you guessing or hoping so I left and as much as it hurts I never deserved you and never will. I took a much different course through life that I didn’t expect but eventually I have to own it and stop being so shitty to people for my screw up. I wonder how you’re doing everyday, I think about the week we had and it’s the place in time and space I left my soul. I’m pretty sure I’ll feel empty for the rest of my days but hopefully I don’t pass that on to my children. I want closure and to feel whole but that will never happen I just wish that you will have it and I don’t mind carrying this burden for the both of us, I deserve it. I’m a messed up person and someone that would have held you back I believe you’re better off without me. I hope you don’t write about me anymore as beautiful as it is I’m not worthy of being kept alive like that. Maybe years from now I’ll stop being a coward and contact you and let you know the course my life took but for now you’re still in my thoughts and I hurt everyday more and more. I’m sorry I was a disappointment and I let you down but sorry only goes so far. I feel like hurting myself or having you punish me but it’s never going to right any wrong done, the fact that I’ll never be able to right anything fills me with dread and misery. You you you; my ultimate goal that will never be reached. I love you so damn much still and wish I could let you know. If death is the only way to see you again then I’ll be waiting for this life to finish up. -Dean
  7. To Someone I Thought I Loved

    I wasted over two years of my life with you. I had no idea that letting you near me would be the greatest mistake of my life. From the beginning of our relationship you pushed me to do things I wasn’t comfortable with in order to make you happy. From the beginning, everything was about you. I was young and I was stupid, so I went along with it. I was too nice to you. I wasn’t selfish enough. I should’ve stepped back and seen how tipped the relationship was in your favor, how I was doing everything for you and receiving so little in return. But I didn’t. And I regret it every day.

    Because you raped me.

    You raped me again and again and again. So many times that I’ve lost count. You’ve touched me. You’ve felt me up. You’ve taken advantage of me. You’ve tricked me. “No” isn’t a correct answer to you. You wouldn’t leave me alone until I finally gave into you. Eventually I got used to it. I learned to not put up a fight. It was easier to get it done and over with rather than try and stop something that can’t be stopped.

    The sexual abuse wasn’t all. You were emotionally abusive. You were verbally abusive. If I didn’t give into your desires, you made me feel guilty. I wasn’t keeping you happy and you knew that would hurt me. Comments about my weight, appearance, and intelligence were common. You made me feel horrible about myself. You made me feel like I wasn’t good enough for you. You put me down every day.

    I’m so glad I realized what was happening. I’m so glad I realized you were an abusive man who would never change, despite my attempts. I’m so glad I realized that was I was experiencing really was rape and not consensual. And most of all, I’m so glad I ended it. I felt like a burden had been lifted off my shoulders. I felt a sense of relief knowing I wouldn’t have to put up with you and your abuse ever again. Or so I thought. After I found someone who treated me the way I should be treated and deserve to be treated, you made one more attempt. You tried to make me feel guilty for your jealousy, as if I caused it. You tried to make me feel guilty for moving on and finally being happy without you. I saw through that. I knew I wasn’t the cause of your jealousy and I had no reason to feel guilty for it. I knew that was your own emotion that you had to deal with on your own.

    I wish I could tell you how happy I am now that I found Tony. From the very beginning, I knew he would be different. He treats me with respect. He makes me laugh more than you ever did. He complements me every chance he gets. He never puts me down for any reason. If I’m ever sad, he does everything in his power to change that. He’s never pressured me into anything. I am truly happy with him. Because of you, I never knew I could be treated this well. I never knew I could go this long without fighting with someone. I never knew I could go this long without someone disappointing me or making me feel horrible about myself. He’s proving all my expectations wrong, and I’ve never been so happy to be proven wrong.

    I wish I could rub this all in your face. Tell you how horrible you were and how I’ve found someone so much better. But I won’t. I’m putting this behind me. I won’t dwell on this anymore. I’m done with you.

    Sincerely,

    Your Very Happy Ex

  8. You know who.


    Before you tear this up and message people about how your “ex” is obsessed and what ever else you say, i need to get these thoughts floating in my head… out.
    I’m sorry, im so.. so sorry. The barrier of hatred between us is invisible to me and i dont know what i have done to make you hate me so much. 3 years of my pathetic life i gave to you and yes… i have massive regrets in what I did within that small amount of time but believe me when i say you were my soulmate. You were my love… my pillow.. my awesome, my chelseacake. This somewhat stupid regretable letter is not a plea to get you back nor to make you feel guilty its just some closure for myself and to really share my thoughts lingering in my head. You turned me completely inside out and then walked away as if nothing had ever happened and at this point, believing something that my mind has made up is easier than not knowing the truth. You’ve left me feeling so raw and dysfunctional. Ultimately, it was out of my reach but I still can’t help but to somewhat blame myself, infact i know it was my fault. It’s taken me since july 28th to write this, and i’ll probably regret it in the morning but i dont care, i need to get these poisenous emotional draining thoughts out of my head and whether you read this or not im never going to get over us.
    I’ve never been good at writing essays..i’ve never really been good at anything to be honest.. but I keep telling myself i made you happy and thats the only thing i can hope for. Many times, I have wanted to ask you to come back, to be my best friend again, to love me again. But now it’s too late and that morning you left me i knew that ‘today, tomorrow, forever’ was just a fiary tale. I was in shock when you left..i couldn’t move… i wanted to say so much but my tongue layed still and i regreted not saying anything. It all happened so fast and then the passing weeks and months the pain got worse and worse. physically i thought my heart was dying and frankly it is dead now. Oh isn’t this cliche? I’m surprised im actually writing in this tone.
    “You may love many people in your lifetime, but you only fall in love once.” What is love? Was what we had love? first love? … I’ll tell you one thing, our relationship was NOT routine - as much as you think it was .. everytime i told you i loved you before bed and through out the day was not just 3 words but pure.. truth. We grew up together and experienced so much and I feel you grew up whilst i stayed behind .. you knew i was always at least 1 year behind everyone else.. right? I know you’re probably shaking your head disgusted at the fact im writing you another letter but… like.. urgh.
    I want to get over you so badly, but I think the only reason I can’t is because a part of me is so utterly in-love with you that my heart just won’t allow me to let go. There’s nothing I can do about that, because I can’t help how I feel. But I wish it was different. I really do. I wish you would realize how much you mean to me but i know theres not one chance in hell we’d be together again.. maybe in another life.
    This isnt selfish of me to say this stuff right? I guess i just miss you too much.
    All my brain does is re-think all of our memories… what happened to that girl who called me on the first night of japan crying, sobbing ‘I miss you’… the girl who promised to be mine. The girl who didnt care what anyone else thought of us. I almost want to throw up because this is so painful. I could list everything from our first kiss on your front porch or the first time i hugged you from behind infront of coles or hey.. our first movie.. you can guess that one. Ms fields cookies? lols.
    I know its exam time and you probably dont need this in your life but hey youre good at bottling up emotion - deleting me from your life was easy ahaha. Dont reply to this letter, I didnt write it how i wanted and im not content with it but it is what it is.
    I hope that you still remember about what we had and that it somehow brings some happiness into your life.

  9. A Broken Heart.


    Before you tear this up and message people about how your “ex” is obsessed and what ever else you say about me, i need to get these thoughts floating around in my head out and in the open.
    I wont be around for much longer.. not that you’d care because im not in your life anymore, as requested. But .. just listen.
    I’m sorry, im so.. so sorry. The barrier of hatred between us is invisible to me and i dont know what i have done to make you hate me so much. 3 years of my pathetic life i gave to you and yes… i have massive regrets in what I did within that small amount of time but believe me when i say you were my soulmate. You were my love… my pillow.. my awesome, my chelseacake. This somewhat stupid regretable letter is not a plea to get you back nor to make you feel guilty its just some closure for myself and to really share my thoughts lingering in my head. You turned me completely inside out and then walked away as if nothing had ever happened and at this point, believing something that my mind has made up is easier than not knowing the truth. You’ve left me feeling so raw and dysfunctional. Ultimately, it was out of my reach but I still can’t help but to somewhat blame myself, infact i know it was my fault. It’s taken me since july 28th to write this, and i’ll probably regret it in the morning but i dont care, i need to get these emotional draining thoughts out of my head and whether you read this or not im never going to get over us.
    I’ve never been good at writing essays..i’ve never really been good at anything to be honest.. but I keep telling myself i made you happy and thats the only thing i can hope for. Many times, I have wanted to ask you to come back, to be my best friend again, to love me again. But now it’s too late and that morning you left me i knew that ‘today, tomorrow, forever’ was just a fiary tale. I was in shock when you left..i couldn’t move… i wanted to say so much but my tongue layed still and i regreted not saying anything. It all happened so fast and then the passing weeks and months the pain got worse and worse. physically i thought my heart was dying and frankly it is dead now. Cliche right?
    “You may love many people in your lifetime, but you only fall in love once.” What is love? Was what we had love? first love? … I’ll tell you one thing, our relationship was NOT routine - as much as you think it was .. everytime i told you i loved you before bed and through out the day it wasntt just 3 words but pure.. truth. We grew up together and experienced so much and I feel you grew up whilst i stayed behind .. you knew i was always at least 1 year behind everyone else.. right? I know you’re probably shaking your head disgusted at the fact im writing you another letter but… like.. urgh.
    I want to get over you so badly, but I think the only reason I can’t is because a part of me is so utterly in-love with you that my heart just won’t allow me to let go( And yes i keep my distance and not message you, but even a 10 minute coffee after loving each other for 3 years was too much for you to handle? After ripping my fucking heart out as you will to other guys no doubt just a 10 minute catch up is too much…Thanks). There’s nothing I can do about that, because I can’t help how I feel. But I wish it was different. I really do. I wish you would realize how much you mean to me but i know theres not one chance in hell we’d be together again.. maybe in another life.
    This isnt selfish of me to say this stuff right? I guess i just somewhat miss you.
    All my brain does is re-think all of our memories… what happened to that girl who called me on the first night of japan crying, sobbing ‘I miss you’… the girl who promised to be mine. The girl who didnt care what anyone else thought of us. I almost want to throw up because this is so painful. I could list everything from our first kiss on your front porch or the first time i hugged you from behind infront of coles or hey.. our first movie.. you can guess that one. Ms fields cookies? lols. Or even how you broke the Graves of the Fireflies case in my school bag :’( Just note that i literally cant watch any studio ghibli movies now because it causes way too many flashbacks/pain.. infact watching anime just makes me sad.. eh..
    A lot of things make me sad.
    I never used you for sex. I just want to emphasise how much pain that brought me when you thought i did..I mean how could you? after all we went through and because i saw you once a week and we had sex every time (i think) you thought you were an object of pleasure to me. Or maybe that was an excuse? I dont know.. I guess i should of seen this coming anyway i mean being manipulated by people jealous of who you are and your situation is always fun. People that cant have what you have so they wreck it? im just sad that you couldnt see through all the decietful bullshit being planted in your head by so many and i guess if you really did love me you wouldnt had left me the way you did like you said “train wreck”.
    I feel like i should list every moment of happiness and every memory i have of us but i dont think its a good idea. No thats not just an excuse saying i couldnt .. i could. I feel like you have just focused on the imperfections of our relationship instead of the perfections which pisses me off because I KNOW the stuff you probably tell people now..are just ways of burrying the emotion and if thats your way of healing and well… getting rid of me then so be it. I just hope you find someone so that youre not so alone as you are now.
    I cant help but to sit here and cry as I did for 2 months after you ripped my heart out. Thinking about our memories kills me still even though i said im over it and what not i .. it still creates that void where you should be.
    Theres much more i need to say but I dont think i should be even writing this letter to begin with so ill leave it, I know its exam time and you probably dont need this in your life but hey youre good at bottling up emotion - deleting me from your life was easy ahaha. You dont need reply to this letter, I think its best you dont. I didnt write it how i wanted and im not content with it but it is what it is and it sha’ll do. I’ll keep all your letters you wrote for me at a distance and maybe i’ll bring them out one day to think back on all our memories. Whether youve thrown out or burnt mine.. its completely up to you. What need do you have with them anyway? probably sold all the jewellery i gave you as well…I want you to know you were the love of my life and i regret not treating you better than i did, i hope you can forgive me and my pathetic ways of showing love. I just want you to know that i’ve grown up, you forced me to and hey i dont get sick anymore nor do i feel any sensitive emotion..ha! You thought i had no ambition but you are wrong. Hopefully where im going it will make me stop thinking about you every morning and night or maybe it wont. ooo i have a six pack now :P and da vein. dunno why im telling you but hey im eating healthy plus im fit and well.. who knows maybe some day i’ll have the body you deserved when i was with you, instead of the fat piece of shit that i was.
    I hope that you still remember about what we had and that it somehow brings some happiness into your life.
    'Is it weird that i miss you?'


    Archive -> August 8th 2010. Look it up.

  10. Anonymous said: We broke up ard 1 yrs ago. we ended on bad terms but now we're slowly to talk. He told me tht I'm the 2nd person he would come runnin if he has problems. 1 mnthago we first started talkin he told me he likes this other girl. A few days ago he told me tht hes givin up on her. His best friend then asked him whether he would go for me agn, he said there's a slim chance bt its better not to. Hes been askin me to hang out bt when I say ok nothin happens. I still like him & he knws tht. Wht this mean?

    He wants to remain friends with you, but nothing more (that’s why he said that it’s better not to go back together)

    Yeah he may still have feelings for you, but I agree with him that it’s better not to get back together, if you’ve once broken up before, it’s likely to happen again. 

    Give each other time to live life without each or not as lovers, if you’re meant to be, your lives will cross again after a number of years, but for now.. Don’t. 

    Stay friends if you can handle it, but if not, talk to him before your feelings gets out of hand.